It’s your job, so you shouldn’t be ashamed. You seem too delicate for the work you’ve chosen. Do you also step back when asked a question in the operating theatre? Do you shy away from cleaning the wound, say it’s not something you could manage? Do you ask for air, when you really want escape? It seems significant that you work through the night and also peer into the cupboard rather than open it. And yet, I judge too much. You’re perfectly competent, no doubt. Conversations are easier when we speak of what we do, rather than what we want.